If you saw my earlier entry, I was just plain pissed at the world. Right now my life's basically at a really bad standstill, and everything just seems to stop. I get into a fight with one of my best friends, and she's pissed, regardless of how many times I've apologized. My dad announced something drastic [not death, don't worry about that] and if I mention it here, I'm afraid it will just get around. I've suddenly lost focus to this imaginative world that I've conjured, therefore making me lose the ability to continue what I've written. I hope I can get it back. I remember a few entries back that I've wanted The Best Summer Ever, with awesome trips to Tim Hortans and daily visits to the mall with a job at the side. Well, like every summer, that never happened. I really wanted a job, despite what others say. My parents are stupid and won't let me have a license, saying that I have to work at my responsibility. They never did that to Tony, which is a problem for me. Like I need special attention because they thought I was retarded. Thanks mom and dad for lowing my self-esteem even more. I'm just plain miserable and I don't want to feel that. I wanna feel like I can do anything, and that nothing can bring me down. I just don't know how to get to that height of happiness.